You’re Never Alone With Your Tears

I saw a woman driving today, she was crying like she had just lost someone close.

Tears of rage. Of being left alone to fight against this planet. To fight for her own life, without having any support as far as she could see into the distance.

It made me cry. My eyes swelled up.

I cried because I know that pain so intimately. I repress the sadness more than I want to feel it. If I experience the depths too often I cannot live, I cannot move forward. I can get lost in the feelings for days. Stuck, numb, distant.

I cried because I feel lonely too often.

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What Home Really Means

Is home where we originally laid roots as a child? 

Or, is it where we lie our heads and bodies for the night?

Home isn’t a place, it’s a state of mind and way of living that can make the world your home. We’ve outgrown the American Dream – the promise of a house, a yard, a wife, a regular child and a half person (look up the stats).

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Weird Fears

Often the fears holding us back aren’t the ones we think. Usually, they’re the strange ones our mind can’t rationalize out of, so it shoves them deep into the back caverns of our mind.

They’re safe here and there’s only a tiny chance you’ll accidentally stumble into them.

Well, I’ve found one of those recently, and it’s caused me to question a lot of what I’ve been doing, and has been a little shitty to look at.

The fabled fear is fear of routine.

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Interesting Problems

Your problems are probably boring, but don’t worry most of mine are too.

What if instead of measuring the success of our lives by the good and by ‘counting our blessings’ and creating a ‘grateful state of mind’, we measured our lives by the interestingness of our problems?

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Objects Of Identity

We love looking outside the walls of our flesh to find objects that define us. We are what we own. What we own consumes us.

Not all objects are bad. I’m not advocating we all strip our clothes and walk naked into the forest, cultivating a lifestyle off the land. Although that does sound enticing.

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Why You Should Dance Like An Idiot

At some point the adult version of ourselves decides the world isn’t fun or magical anymore, we decide it’s time to get to work and grow up.

This is a critical mistake.

The world is always magic. The world is always alive.

A child’s eyes see reality’s potential. It’s not the naiveté it’s commonly marked out to be. It’s connected more closely to truth than our rigid eyes can ever hope to see.

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The “Real World” As a Myth

When did we stop playing?

When did life get serious and all of the joy leave our day to day existence? No more unstructured fun. Play is relegated to the immature, those who don’t want to grow up.

We’re told there is a tipping point where the fun stops and the work begins. This isn’t true. We’ve been told a lie. We can believe what we choose to believe and live accordingly.

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Pain Can Be Really Fucking Necessary

We are drawn towards things, people and experiences that will help us become more whole. Yes, even pain.

Sometimes our actions come as a result of us trying to fix ourselves, trying to go beyond one hundred percent. Hoping a realm of perpetual bliss exists.

We want to transcend our humanness, we want to grow out of our pains. Instead of bringing ourselves face to face with the truth of our current world, we retreat into our dreams and vision.

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