We define the word use by the amount of measurable value we can get from any given thing. This line of thinking extends from our industrial revolution-esque upbringing. A world where efficiency matters more than soul.
The restricted definition of use restricts the amount of usefulness we can get from any given topic. We expect results, we expect happiness, and we expect direction. But, do we every really possess any of these things?
Insecurity is just below the surface of any interaction we have throughout the day. I may be, nay, I am, overly sensitive and too aware for my own good.
But, the fact we have to work hard to feel comfortable in our own skin suggests something much deeper going on.
A lot of the personal problems we face are a manifestation of a larger culture. One in which the artist is shunned and participating in the larger economic unfolding is more important than art or expression ever could be. We all have to eat, right?
Maybe we’re not supposed to be looking for moments of bliss and happiness to be the norm? In pursuing spiritual ideals we tend to lean towards one end of the spectrum or the other. Forgetting that balance actually comes from the middle.
My rebellious nature tends to pull me towards the extreme spectrum. A kind of subtle extremism, born out of stubbornness and a thirsting quest to drink from every kind of spring.
Behind my thoughts lies a sea of pure freedom. Beyond my emotions lies a land that’s wild and free. This is the land I wish to live.
Sometimes I remember the combination it takes to open all the locks. Other times it comes more naturally, in moments of transcendence. These are the best. Effortless freedom. When reality cracks at the foundation to reveal something deeper and more pure.
The moonlight sonata of chaos also brings the subtle tones of peace and beauty. This ride is the ride we all hope for. To walk towards something resembling freedom.
For the most part our lives don’t matter.
We fill them with activities, people, events, spaces, work and projects that simply exist to take up space.
Filler.